30 seconds after

I have never been someone check out the news, it’s always just been a kinda live in the moment type thing for me. Every now and then though i can’t deny the curiosity and check out whatever randomly comes up. Then once again, after checking the news, i always remember why i never do. The news is just to damn depressing. Depressing and utterly serious. The two things i hate the most in the world.

I just got done looking at a few News sites someone posted on here. The first one was about a teenage girl being stabbed to death by a young married couple. I don’t even wanna know the side relationships and feelings were going on there, and i hope to never experience them. Thats the kinda thing that makes you happy for your own solve-able problems. That may sound cold hearted and or mean to you, but if you wanna be one of those bleeding hearted people, who get all caught up in the details of, oh how must her family have felt, or how in the world could anyone do anything like that. go ahead. but some questions are just better left untouched, some questions i really don’t want to know. I’ll live in my own bubble where everything isn’t run off dry emotions.

The second article was about how an Obese guy wasn’t allowed to adopt a baby, then after he had plastic surgery, weather the two are related i don’t know, he apparently won the custody battle. The funny thing is it doesn’t really mention weather the two are related, it says thats what Mr. Obese thinks but other than that gives on reasons. There’s really not enough information here. Don’t get me wrong her i don’t care if someones slightly overweight, that has nothing to do with who they are as a person, but we have got to draw the line somewhere. In my opinion Obesity really is a problem, not being able to take care of yourself…come on. I just don’t understand how someone could let themselves slip away like that. But my point is, even if they are related, which i seriously doubt they are, could someone who isn’t willing to take care of their own body, which in away shows lack of self respect, really be suitable to be in charge [have custody] of someone else’s child?

The next article i saw was about Philadelphia’s crime rate. This article related the fact that black male’s are the number one people who drop out to crime rate there. Not only is this racist but it was trying to convey the message that everyone should be in school, that everyone needs to be a little drone working for a community of some sort. Its not that I’m necessarily saying that people should just drop out, but if someone has a good reason to think they could make it on their own, or have reasons why high school just might not work out for them its not something they should be criticized for or place blame in that general direction. In my opinion how the article stated it was that it was a bunch of “demented sociopaths” which is strong context and is saying that it goes way beyond just your average high school drop out. That must mean that theirs some underlying problem, and i doubt its weather they “dropped out of high school” or not. Which is just a conformist saying anyhow.

Those are just my opinion’s on a few random news topics. My actual point, which i might have stated earlier, is just that our main flaw as a human race seems that we seem to try and fix problems 30 seconds after they take place. We seem to teach sick-ness here not health. Just maybe we should all stop and think things through before we do them. Why is it people only pay attention after the guns let off? Smile and tell someone close to you how much you love them every once in awhile, instead of letting nasty thoughts rise up unnecessarily. “you have to be the change you wish for the world” maybe thats true after all. silly quotes.

let it snow let it snow

Pretty much everyone knows that little kids always wish for snow around Christmas. Santa always let me down in that area, the only area he did actually, so i forgave him because one i got everything else i needed, and two i live in the great North Wet, i mean West. North West.  This year however we got so much snow, i only wish i didn’t have mono so i could go out and truly enjoy it.

So far i seriously think we’ve had about three feet altogether. Sure you could take into consideration the fact that I’ve moved into an area where  I’m surrounded by mountains on every side of me but even for this area we’ve gotten a lot of snow.  I for one am thankful. Everyone else in my family just goes about their usual business of bitching because that’s all they want to do. No matter whats going on they always find some way to grump a mump about it.

That doesn’t really bother me anymore though. Its just kinda one of those things that you  have to let faze over yourself because its not worth the fight. Especially when your moving out in about 8 months. Funny how when you know you don’t have to deal with something for forever its easier to go day to day. Gives life a more pleasant feeling. That’s probably why i like moving so much.

Anyways. I’ll cut the babble and get to the good stuff. So far I’ve hiked three miles in it. Attempted to build an Igloo with three unwilling companions.  Shoveled my mini portion of outer side walk five times, nice even number. Made numerous snow men, and sat for count less hours day dreaming staring in an upward direction towards the sky. If i had the patience for it right now id be writing a poem about it instead. But I’m also still getting over the whole embarrassment of having someone read my cheesy work.   I’m hoping soon ill be OK with myself.  I just don’t want to put a time limit on myself if i do that ill try another OD.

Just keep on letting it snow, and ill be fine.

swirls of circles

on common ground we sand.

each with our own band of wits

who’s whats and nots

i move before you can strike

to scared to be stabbed in the back.

you crawl back in your most pitiful manor.

i realize i shot to soon.

or maybe i just really want you.

you have my attention

yet the line is still silent.

it must mean destruction.

firing sets motion.

again your put into shame.

you come back claiming peace and love

sending a dove

we sit down to tea

and let it be

you shatter my cup against the wall

and you watch as i fall

smashed down turning brown.

my shit, you’ve revealed it.

my early bombing you’ve discovered.

crash course.

I shoot in time.

I’m moving in with the next door lime.

You discover my new spot.

come back brushing away the dots

of blood on your jacket.

Let me hold you once more

come now open your door.

As you stand in the walls of my heart

& play darts

the question again comes to lips

why dip?

i reveal an imaginary side of myself

i cant win you in battle

but if i out wit you will you

stay away.

End this circle.

i care not for crusade’s

love me not

i don’t want your pain.