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[This post is dedicated to my best friend in the entire universe Piper G. my number one homie. I haven't even seen her in almost a year and yet i will always keep the foot prints she left on my heart]
There is nothing in the world that will measure up to a Bestie. A Bestie is someone who laughs at your dumb jokes with you and adds to them. She is someone who will stand by your side even when your wearing the most ridiculous outfit, and she will have one ExacTly the same but cOmplEtely opposite on.
They support you when your sad, and dont walk away when you say nothing is wrong, they keep trying even after you’ve slammed doors in their face and chased you all over the house, but the most important part is they forgive you after you’ve chased them down the street after being so rude when you apologize even though you don’t deserve it, and give you the worlds best hug as you stand there crying and spilling out your heart, right in the middle of orleans st. as cars go racing by looking and wondering.
A bestie is there for all the behind the scenes stuff, and sit with you patiently while bored out of your minds and crack up about nothing. A bestie is for making up dance’s and listening to made up romances. She’s the one who tells you to keep going when you doubt yourself, and your there to listen and support whenever she needs it too. She is the one that you give your support to, because you know just what she needs to hear, and thats how amazing she is, and to laugh a little bit. A bestie is better than when i guy thinks he’s got Ballz.
Besties are good for secret languages, and those moments when all you need is a look to know exactly what you are both thinking. Someone to convince that they DO want to go to the dance, because they wont want to miss it afterwards, no matter HOW much they say they don’t want to.
After having a bestie, when separation comes no matter what the circumstances at the time were, you know there will always be someone who cares. You can call them after months and still tell them when you dont feel loved and they will share some with you. After you have a bestie you wont ever feel quiet right with out them, because you know that if they were there, no matter what the circumstances, you guys would be having a blast. There is nothing in the world that will ever separate your friend ship, not distances in months or years, not boys, not other friends, a bestie will always be there, somewhere, even if hidden. I know that it wasn’t goodbye, but pipes its just not right. && i misssss you soooo much.
Even the words as i write this hesitate before entering the world.
Now it seems i have two different planets side by side that speak two different languages, and i alone am set to the task of making them reconnect.
The first one is planet earth, with all its people,glory, shame, ideas, and pictures upon it. It is the realm of constant-ly changing into the same.
The second is the one i have somehow created it is my ideas, thoughts, needs & wants. It is very opinionated and can be hard to persuade.
As i sit on my porch stairs i watch as a small glimpse of daily life travels by me. I sit and question the reasoning for what used to be part of my own daily procedure.
I’m trying to imagine myself back in that world, and as looking at a puzzles edges of how the individual pieces fit together you see that they all match up perfectly, but by color and design you can see that this piece does not belong there. Even when you zoom out and the picture is more diverse it still seems a bit off key.
The second planet is one strange and foreign, at least to anyone else reading this. On this foreign plant you should know that during the day the stars shine by way of eyes, and at night the sun does not go down, a symbol of peace and hope.
At times it is known that the two worlds will never coexist peacefully side by side, this is a fierce sign of chaos: when chairs are upturned and suspicion roams the lands below. every noise is a reason to jump, in fright, and every word a new plot for destruction These times are the troubled ones in which i now live. I alone am here to with stand the pain, help where it is needed and endure all great hardships. I am the one who must clam the tides of uncertainty and restore freedom.
We all have our moments in the past where looking back the automatic reaction is just to wince, cringe and wish for a time eraser. Somtimes those types of moments can grow so big as to take up an entire year of our lives. And even take up space that you are currently trying to occupy on the time scale.
This happens when the reasoning for the events in question have deep roots, that need dug up. Right now the link on my ankle is almost set free, but i don’t yet have my wings. There are still a few things left i need to do. Recreating yourself is not exactly an easy thing to do. You just gotta keep on keepin on. I’m still nervous about this. i dont know why, it just sits there accusingly in the background.
Well hopefully now i can sleep. <3
- My name is Shelley Michelle
- I am currently a loner [because of circumstances]
- I in general love people
- I am a happy by nature girl under to much stress
- weather or not you keep the “common area clean” has nothing to do with how polite a person is. not all polite people keep the “common area clean” completely.
- Could this world handle any more stupidity? please do not associate my lazy cleaning habits with how nice i am to people. the two don’t decipher each other.
- I miss living easy.
- I want true happiness.
1. Family is ________ !!!!!
2. Applebee’s is the best overpriced little place in town, and out. The pleasant atmosphere will calm any get together, and bring up the spirit. & they have the best Oreo MilkShakes. yumm.
3. It doesn’t matter how much sleep you get if your day is exhausting, or mind numbing.
4.Pay attention to little details, you’ll see a lot more than you thought was there.
5.Out side of the city most people have a garage that is as big, OR bigger than their house.
6. Look when driving on long highways and you’ll see most huge yards filled with old run down cars.
7. Cheesy video games are the best. especially ones you randomly find at a pawn shop, you know those video games no one’s ever heard of. grrr-ate.
8. Good will is 90% filled with clothes, if your not buying clothes it’s a good idea not to just go hang out at Good will, the strong urge might get the better half of you. Or you might get pissed at your madra for being unbudging.
9. Blunt mom’s are no fun. If you have one you know, it’s always going to be all or nothing. no in between, which you then realize isn’t half bad, but you can’t have it.
10. There are moments when there’s nothing you can do but whine and there for it feels good. I hate the feeling of being absolutely powerless. Like when it comes to something like not having done any of your huge project and your standing in front of your teacher trying to explain why you just didn’t do it and wishing you could go back in time.
as we stand in our glass case
in a museum, just to be on display
every move is a new act
of what we want to portray
sitting and waiting always
for a new day
remember remember
the fifth of november
living in fear
without you near
what have we here?
in the shadows, in the dead of night
hiding behind your curtains
is where you stash your true self
in the bleak and empty quiet before
the sun rises once again
she’ll come out for momentary relief
don’t worry it wont last long
you be back to you porcelain faces
before dawn.
1. Some times when your so excited, you maybe should hide it. Not everyone can pull off being male and singing like a chick. ; )
2.If all else fails when you have a bunch of people over at your house, say fuck it, sit down and play video games. It works for almost anything too, don’t wanna do the dishes-video games, procrastinating homework- video games, ignoring your friends? – video games.
3. When your sister wont do any laundry just tell her she can’t wear your clothes any more, she’ll run out of pantys soon enough.
4. Piece of advise, I know cleaning sucks, even comparable to the worlds biggest balls kinda sucks, but you should clean so you don’t get a bug problem and then following that a spider infestation, which givin enough time will eventually attract mice or rats. not pretty. just clean, get it over with. kay?
5. The silent treatment will get anything out of somebody, use with caution though, you might lose them as a friend if abused, although if your trying to lose them it will only encourage drama. no fun.
6. If you name your cat bullet [or any other witty name implying greatness] he will eventually get tired of being hyper all day and sleep nonstop.
7. People will assume anything you let them, so say fuck it and prove their assumptions right before they get the chance to make it, like say doing random acts of kindness such as putting a rubber band around their sink hose. [for anyone who doesn't know thats a little sprayer next to the fosit in some house's it comes in handy in kitchen wars.]
8. The Discovery Channel is the best. well, after Youtube, and blasting music to piss off the neighbors that is.
9. Don’t ask. It’s easier to get forgiveness than get permission, especially when the rents have already said no. [this one is a bit clishe and over used, but it's a goodun none the less]
10. When no tums are available try 1tsp of baking soda[?] and some water, works wonders, even on the spins.
