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It’s funny to think that i have waited for so long for things, and now that they are happening this is only the beginning. This is where it’s all starting, and yet here i am, just sitting here typing. Life as it turns out is something else completely. I dont even know what it is. all i know is here i am, and im doing my best to live it. I think i’ll try and meet some new people today. I think meeting new people is a must, get some fresh ideas, and opinions, well i have to figure my own out still, but it’s always cool to hear different perspectives.
ok so what should i do now…the brain storming…and the brain storming…what is there to do in this city. besides alot.
REMEMBER [for me to remember obviously] to call danny and tell him i got here ok, and the funnys that went on on the train, and see how he is doing. 2. Get bus pass. 3. Find some cancer. 4. Go to ashleys. 5. Pick up hair dye. 6. Go looking for a JOB!!!!! <<<<<—–most important.
Ok, here’s the scoop, i am now officially moved into my friends house, i took the train down today and here i am. I used to be best friends with who i moved in with, but i havent seen her in like two years, i mean like really seen her. I mean we’ve hung out here and there, but two hundred miles kinda puts a damper on the hanging out you can do with a certain person, especially with the gas prices these days, and my lack of a job.
One of my old kinda friends, or i guess, aquantences just tryed to kill himself. What perfect timing do i have…except not. I feel really bad for him, i wish these things weren’t happening because i know exactly what he is going through. Him and i were never really good friends but i can relate to how he feels, and i hope he gets the help out of it, or manages to kill himself. and i know that sounds like a really bad thing to say, but if possible i mean it in the best way, just i’ve been there before and it’s better to just get it over with, or it feels like it’s better to just get it over with then to come back and face the world. Things worked out for me and i was really lucky, it took a long time for me to get through it, and i hope he can be as strong. It’s hard. I hate hearing what everyone is going through now, because when it was happening to me everyone was all nice to my face, as i’m sure they are to him, and talk about him, as im sure he knows as i did.
well, im sad that me and my bf have grown apart but i guess thats life, as life is change. Hey, i AM verry glad that we’re still friends even, and i don’t have to leave soon. I am really glad i dont have to leave soon. i’m tired of leaving people behind. oh so tired of it. I already miss danny. that’s why i tryed not to like him so much, is i knew i would miss him…as it turns out…that whole not liking danny thing didn’t work out that well, as i got really attached to him, i didn’t realize how much i actually cared for him until i thought tiffany liked him, thats kinda like maria, she didn’t know she like this one dood until someone else asked him to prom, except danny and i were already dating…but yea…that all for now.
peace
My hair and my general bad ass self. What can i say, im simply amazing like that. Self absorbed – check. Camera – check. Emo look – uncheck. Punk – helllz yea.
Well as it turns out, im moving tomorrow. I know it’s freaking CRAZY, i was just going along in life minding my own business, and then all of a sudden everything started working out and the pieces just kinda fell into place. I hope that im on a roll, and things just keep on flowing, like the river of life. You know i may have been stuck up on the wrong shore for awhile but, i just waited for the tied to rise again to sweep me back into where i belong, and shazam. here i am.
I’m not going to lie to myself anymore. I’m really nervous, i mean, not SUPER, just ‘actually’ there’s alot i could do wrong, i just have to know to avoid it.
From the ground i will build myself up. it will be awEsum. just wait, you will see.
ok so now that im done being all “wooh who” and what not. life is good, in general, and everything is going ok, im basically just ignoring the bad stuff for right now but thats only because im leaving tomorrow and there is no use in starting something huge in one night. i’d rather just grin and bear it and be gone tomorrow than sit and listen to people bitching all night.but im getting a bit tired, and even though i am staying up all night, i dont feel like mentally exhausting myself, so i’mma go do something else for awhile.
peace.
I love my family, im so glad that i got an ok bunch. I mean, sure they have their problems but no one is perfect, and its stuff like having your little sister who you barley know write a paper that says she looks up to you just fills your heart. awww, i feel special. thanks t.
although i do love my family i still cant wait to move outta my moms place. good freaking lord it will be nice to finally be on my own! then i will be free at last!!! free as a bird.
Freedom. such a touchy subject these days, i hear a lot of controversy on the matter. Usually it comes from people who like to obey the law, and people who like things that are illegal. my thoughts on the matter is that if you have to discuss how much freedom you have with someone, then you already have given up yours for whatever reason you have it. there are two things that define someones freedom, and i like how Johnny Depp put it, “what a man can do, and what a man cant do”. Freedom isn’t something your given, if someone is “giving” you freedom is it really freedom? no. you didn’t choose it, it was given to you. Freedom is your choice of what you want to do. everyone weather they think they do or not has it. they may not like the things they have to do to get their freedoms, and there is not TRUE freedom, because everythings got a price, but you have the freedom to choose what your willing to pay for what you think is necessiary or what you want in life. THAT IS FREEDOM, that is the only freedom you’ve got my friend, dont listen to people who tell you the gov’t gives you freedom or god gives you freedom, its something you create in your own world.
yupp yup. title says it all.
If you wanna cheat on your fucking girlfriend, your a slime ball end of story. CHEATERS STAY AWAY. fucking douche bags.
in other news, Life just might turn out alright, as long as things you know, go alright. no one wants me here in my town, im pretty sure my family hates me, although as far as im aware im dont really know why, but you know, i gotta keep on pushin. whatever. no one REALLY listens to me, and i know im a good person, or at least try to be the best i can, and if thats not good enough then UP YOURS douche bag.
