i’m giving you this umbrella and wishing you safety and love, but it is time we part ways. it has been a great journey.

i know what your thinking.

and if you are ever in need of a good song, but grow tired of fall out boy, i suggest Senses Fail, their best song and one i dedicate it to you, Calling All Cars.

hopefully, we at least had a few good laughs. it’s time however, to go back to real life.

-my last loves going out-NOW- hope ya caught em. peace.

Side Note: i know what your thinking, “i just shit my pants!!!” dood that sucks, good luck cleaning that out. Good bye my good friend, i will remember these times as pleasant ones, where sleep was foreign and laughs were often. Savor these last words of mine, until i become famous and you can hear my words whenever you choose. Im so sorry it had to end this way, this terrible way…but get over it. =/. =p. lol, i know you will. 

final score. 

INIDANS : WON!!!! [duh, because were awesome]

GLASSES : ZERO!!!! [because i will always win, biotch]

Confessions Of a Shelleymiester

things to keep in mind.

1. Procrastination is how i work..at anything..like ..[to be continued]

2. I wear dirty jeans when i run out of clean ones, or when the ones i really want to wear are dirty. Undies some time too. =[. hehe.

3. I shave my legs once in a great while, not ever other day like i should.

4. I DO care how i look, all the time, when i look good, i feel good.

5. I'm terrible at putting on makeup. and often look like Frankenstein's bride to be, yes i could give Mary Shelley's characters a run for their money.

6. Google and Dictionary.com are my number one most used resources when i dont know what someone is talking about.

7. At least 50% of what i talk about has to do with me. and yes, i am self centered.

8. Anything that makes me laugh i will like. when it comes to laughter i'm an addictee.

[i laugh at mean things]

9. I have the memory of a Gold fish, and i refer to all of my friends to “that one dood” for the first three weeks of hanging out.

10. I spy on the neighbors, and read magazines front to cover when i get them [which is why i dont]

11. I enjoy threatening to beat people up, even though i would lose any battle i got into, because im a wimp.

12. I’m slightly bipolar. i think. and i cant make a solid decision and follow through with it.

13. I also enjoy dancing in my pantys and singing in the shower. I cant play my guitar to save my life. && i forget half of my great ideas before i can put them down on paper.

14. I probably act like a mom alot, not sure, but probably.

15. I love odd n random things, but when you stop to think about it, im really not much of either, im just as predictable as anyone else. like, i freaking die for good kisses. and cry during sad movies. and not sad movies.

16. I’m a really big baby and act like a spoiled brat, but most of the time try and pass off as a really analytical knower of all. once i get set on a point of view i wont budge. i can’t even make myself budge.

17. I love all animals and might be considered a hippie, without the grose things like dread locks and taking showers once every month. but i dont like wearing shoes.

18. 11 is my lucky number, and i dont know how thats a confession but there we go.

Here’s to me!

So, i don’t know what’s going to happen from here on out, but i’ve realized that- hey, you just can’t make every body happy, so right now shoot for yourself then along the way hopefully you can bring up some one else, and that will be THE ABSOLUTE BEST!!!!

but once someone makes up their mind all you can do is let them realize their mistake and help them out with they fall.

i just hope i can get that little bit of happiness back that i never had.

More Random Things.

to think about.

1. To build a fire you do not need a stradigy guide.

2. Dark Cloud is a really time consuming easy game. I Love It. If you ever have to much spare time on your hands for an extended amount of time i recomend it. PS2 only [if your cool].

3. Drinking makes everything alot funnier. If you have a friend who wont really open up, take them drinking they’ll open up from laughter, and if not who cares cuz your to busy laughing your ass off to care.

4.short hair looks really bad in the morning no matter what, at least if its unhealthy stright hair.

5. when you lose one of your boots, turn your room upside down to find it, give up, then two days later find it the other boot will have vanished in the mean time.

6. i wish there was a 7/11 near my house. i could go for some good nachos and a slurpee right about now.

7. don’t move to a small town. just don’t.

8. sometimes it’s good to listen to the other voice, the one that says “dooo eiit” when your “good” half says otherwise. who defines good anyways?

9. some people will just never understand.

things to think about:

a few things:
1. peaches are yummy.
2. you have to be in a pickle[y] kinda mood other wise pickles are grose.
you don’t believe me,next time you open your fridge and while not thinking about pickles [aka NOT thinking: yumm a pickle sounds good right now] try a pickle. not good.
3.tortillas in the microwave get you nowhere. and im not talking about putting them in for actual time. im mean just sitting there. despite common belief, IT DOES NOTHING, NOTHING I TELL YOU.
4.if you have an idea that you really want to get down on paper, and you want to get it down right this second for fear of losing it, you will not be able to find a pen anywhere in your area that works, or any writing utensil for that matter.
5. if you have nothing to do on a friday night[or any other day of the week] message this girl shelley, 99.9 percent of the time she wont either and you guys can chat about nothing in weird ways over the internet.
6.be thank full for indoor heating. [my house is freezing when were out of firewood]

you know, sometimes, it just hits me.

WOW!

so for all this time, i’ve been thinking that i would come back here and figure out what i want to do[here as in this little shit hole town] by process of elimination, by taking everything else out of my life that i thought was ok and then whatever i had left was going to be it. be me[in a certain way]. and then i started this blog because i was bummed that i STILL haven’t found one.

i mean i kinda play my guitar, video games are kinda fun, annoying people and destroying my rep is ok, but none of it really felt like it was me, just stuff i was doing to keep myself occupied and unbored. Then it freaking hit me. There is something i do everyday to create stuff, my own stuff, sometimes it is on the computer and most times not, but i do it when i have overwhelming frustration, not so much when im really hyper, or happy, but i’m trying to work that in. oh yea, to the point. ITS WRITE.

how could i not have seen this?? i do it every day, in a million different ways. just wow. it honestly took me this long to figure that out???? i mean, its right in front of me all the time. i’ll seriously even write on my leg if i have nothing else handy. WOW. JUST WOW. im amazed. FIVE MONTHS of me thinking i had nothing. [plus the last seventeen years of my life] but. yup. there it is. and now i’m good. YEY ME.

Through the airwaves

Through the Airwaves

Every beat and breath is planned

In the end your just a tool taken for granted

The truth will never be revealed

Unless they want a go at your heart

They feed you bull shit through the waves

Through the air waves you get “happy” light

Through the sound waves you get moving beats

Wine and bread they’ll go for every time.

Easy are the greedy to rob.

and who is the most selfish of them all but the king of the jungle.

it’s gotta be the top.

Here we sit in ignorance. pretending to dance. saying

its good, its a game.

They feed us bull shit. and we come back for seconds. everyone.