i’m giving you this umbrella and wishing you safety and love, but it is time we part ways. it has been a great journey.

i know what your thinking.

and if you are ever in need of a good song, but grow tired of fall out boy, i suggest Senses Fail, their best song and one i dedicate it to you, Calling All Cars.

hopefully, we at least had a few good laughs. it’s time however, to go back to real life.

-my last loves going out-NOW- hope ya caught em. peace.

Side Note: i know what your thinking, “i just shit my pants!!!” dood that sucks, good luck cleaning that out. Good bye my good friend, i will remember these times as pleasant ones, where sleep was foreign and laughs were often. Savor these last words of mine, until i become famous and you can hear my words whenever you choose. Im so sorry it had to end this way, this terrible way…but get over it. =/. =p. lol, i know you will. 

final score. 

INIDANS : WON!!!! [duh, because were awesome]

GLASSES : ZERO!!!! [because i will always win, biotch]

Here’s to me!

So, i don’t know what’s going to happen from here on out, but i’ve realized that- hey, you just can’t make every body happy, so right now shoot for yourself then along the way hopefully you can bring up some one else, and that will be THE ABSOLUTE BEST!!!!

but once someone makes up their mind all you can do is let them realize their mistake and help them out with they fall.

i just hope i can get that little bit of happiness back that i never had.

Lean Back

An old song by Fat Joe.

Dancing in a Camper with my old best friend Amanda and out other friends Jake And Sammy. The cute guy outside that i’d been hanging out with, and me trying to impress him. A sunny day in the summer, just messing around. Who doesn’t love those days?

To me that’s what that song will always be despite the fact that i don’t really like the lyrics now that I’ve sat down and listened to them.

That got me into thinking about how people remember things for different reasons. Most people i’ve heard remember things off emotion, and i could see how that works out, when your bored you don’t really remember that as much even though you might have spent more time doing something and being bored than having fun and doing something.

I like how if you talk to different people who were at the same show maybe even friends, doing the exact same thing you’ll get a different view point every time. That’s why i love talking to people.

& I heard once that when you remember something that every time you bring it back up it is different, because of your perception of it at the time, basically the way you think about things affects how you remember something.

ok, there’s the end of that weird and random thought. ‘

let go shelley

the past is something gone, that you still kinda have

in your memories

clinging to them as you sit in a barren land

trying to scrape up the last crumbs of the cake

wont make you a new one

i remember wanting something new

having the will power to shrug off past hardships

and over come obstacles unthinkable

i remember being with the wind

flowing threw these desperate times

seeing as the blind do

then i came upon a swamp

that looked like a grand castle

i was sucked into my illusions of great ideas

once realization came i was overcome by quicksand

so here i lay

can i grasp reality

take hold and know that the future will come

that not everything that defines me lies in my mistakes

my hear pounds in fear of losing you

and my head aches in treachery of trying to get rid of you

you are my cigarette to the cancer lover

you are my romeo who fell for Juliette instead

you are the cake to the obese

i love you

but were bad for each other

& i don’t want you to change

as an afterthought i still love you

but its time we let go of the past

im sorry but [i still love you] its time we move on.